Sunday, March 1, 2009

That Thing Called Trust

I would like to write in BOLD right now. I guess that pretty much sums up my current state right now. Blogging has been my avenue to express my ideas. I feel happy after finishing a blog post. It's like finishing an artwork or a well-loved dish. I feel happy cos I gave my heart and soul into doing it.
I easily trust people. Not the type wherein I would compromise my security. But I trust people so easily as I may bare my soul to that person. I enjoy talking with just one person and even if a group would make my day (or night) energetic and happy, a single person accompanying me into some nice conversation is still what I prefer. Be it a physical conversation or over the phone or over the internet, I always value conversations with a single person.
I guess I'm always interested with the individual, rather than the group. It's nice if I get to know what's on the other person's mind and what would they have to say about me in return. I always thought of myself as a good conversationalist. People tell me that that would be one of my strengths. And I believed that as well. I pay close attention to what a person would tell me. And believe me, I almost always remember!
However, I feel a little short-changed. No matter how much I value people and the camaraderie that comes with it, I don't I really got close friends! I have a best bud, yeah. But, it's nothing too deep. I get to speak with him sometimes. But, I don't feel he's there for me.
Unfortunately, I'm quite surrounded with people who you can't trust completely. As I was speaking with my best bud's younger brother (who happened to be my younger sister's suitor), it should be better for me not to divulge anything to the people that surrounded us. True friends is what I really need. Not someone who you say everyday, thus automatically giving them the honor of being your friend.
I think I pretty much offended some people from the blogosphere and the forums I go to everyday and every night. I'm very sensitive that I might overdo things. However, I'm also a believer that each person has the right to say his piece. I'm not asking for your pity or what-have-you. I don't care. I'm not asking for your trust cos after you saw what I got to say here, I guess it is not really worth it anymore. I believe trust and friendship shouldn't be asked. It is earned.
I guess I just got to keep finding.

2 Responses to “That Thing Called Trust”

Jake said...
March 2, 2009 at 2:20 AM

Hey, I trust you kiddo. :) Smile naman dyan...

Curbside Puppet said...
March 2, 2009 at 12:11 PM

opo. thanks jake. my pasalubong from vegas is what would cheer me up! hahaha!

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